Cancer has released another monster in hubby: an evil, angry and resentful one. Last three weeks have been hell. He is suffering and in turn is making us suffer. That anger against the world for his own failings and disappointments is being leashed against his family and friends. Mostly towards me. I feel like leaving, running away from all his nastiness. I do still love him. Love is making me stay. Love for my kids may make me leave.