Yesterday was such a busy, but productive day. Did my hair, went to dentist, got new reading glasses and even cooked for the family.
But the best thing that happened to me was that I got a co-supervisor! Lui got me in the program in the first place and now he seemed to be ok with new project. I am still disappointed that my other supervisor left me without saying good-bye. Who knows? This maybe the best way of me getting into my PhD and working towards it, a supervisor who supervises!!
I’ll be meeting them back in two weeks, continuing with confirmation report and looking at other models.
Happy? Yes, Scared? You bet!
Yesterday it was a very special day. The best and worst of my younger years came to me. One of the greatest groups I worked with was having their 21st reunion, I couldn’t get half because of the long drive by myself and half because of my thesis work, and a bit because Alice couldn’t bed me. Actually the main reason was because I am meeting my supervisor next week and needed to have something prepared for him. I was disappointed I couldn’t make it, but it was more painful when they call me to say how much they miss me and how much they wanted me to be there. My heart felt so loved and I was so grateful for having had them in my life all those years ago. At night i went to the FMLN party, after Esperanza asked me to go, I can’t say no to her. At the party, the S and brother were there. All their nastiness and my foolishness came back to me. Good that part of my life is gone.
Good thing is that I actually worked on my report. I think I am getting to 4000 words, unedited, about 3000 once I edit this. Good because I am aware I need to work much more on literature review and methods. I will aim for 8000 for confirmation report.
Today is Sunday, I spend time with family, a bit of cleaning and uniform washing I will spend 2 hours with report.
This morning was a shocker: I found out that I dint emailed me the latest copy of my report! All that work over the last two days is locked away safe at work in the office. So, to pass the time I started to play with my new external hard drive and moving files around for ease of access: big, BIG mistake. I lost my endnotes files!! All my rwferecences and citations gone. But gone where? I don’t remember deleting any files? My heart sank, I was cool, but realising what that meant: days and days of extra work. I looked around and nothing. So I went to the source of all wisdom: I prayed
, I begged, I promised. Anyway resigned to my luck I went back to my document and started to work on the text. Then, I thought, what about if I tried to open my biography from the references in the document? And guess what? It worked!! I got my endnotes library back: God is good. After that, my heart hasn’t stopped beating fast and I am yet to calm down. Learnings from this experience: don’t play with your fIles, backup, and be grateful to God.
Last night I wrote up a few more words in my confirmation report and felt good to have advanced a little. Still no enough, but almost 800 words more than where I was a few weeks ago. Went to bed after midnight. The thing with writing is that you must be in the ‘zone’ and it takes a few hours to get there, but once you are there you must use it! It took me longer to write up just 100 words, because of computer problems I lost my work from Thursday, very dissapounting, but I guess that’s just life as a student. Had to redo that section. I showed some grit, because my initial feelings were to give up and watch the Saturday movie, but I just moved on and kept working. Also thanks to Mr G who found a mouse and tried to fix computer.
This morning I woke up at 6am, did my yoga stretches and went for 20min walk. Two challenges accomplished before 7am: the 5am challenge (6am for Sunday) and a walk.
Today we have a very busy family day: church morning, party afternoon and Cuchubal at night. When will I have time to write? Let you know tomorrow.
It was a scary day, the beginning of one of the hardest challenges I have gotten myself into: start writing my thesis. I finally after weeks of procrastination I logged on my uni account and completed my induction quiz. I also booked myself into a few seminars. Amazingly, one of the many emails was an invitation to go for the Bridge to Brisbane run. I registered to represent the uni, but I had no realised until to late that the invitation was for the 10 kms run! Coincidence? So in the next month I will push myself to get to run/walk my first ever 10kms and complete the first chapter of my thesis! All while looking after a young family and working full time! Glad that I am doing a gratitude challenge and with joy in our hearts we can accomplish anything!
Once again busy day at work, but this time I disappeared for a while to get a massage. So grateful for that. Mr X has been very busy today cooking for tomorrow’s big party. They are expecting more than 100 people, hopefully all that arguing with the committee members will pay off. We couldn’t go for our walk with Mr X so I played good techno in my I-phone and got to dance. So grateful I got to my 10.000 steps with the good old techno music.
Saturday was a busy day, but I was lucky I went for a 4km walk, with a bit of running. During the day I was frantic preparing for our weekend guests. We had a couple from China staying for one night. Our German guest looked after the boys and finally we had a change to go dancing. So grateful for the chance to go for the walk and for all the dancing. Today, was a terrible day for fitness, no morning walk (we came home at 2am!), no exercise and way too much food with friends and family. So grateful for those lovely off days!
Today was a good day for fitness and I am so grateful for that. It all started in the morning when I didn’t want to go for my walk, it was foggy, wet and cold. I was making excuses, trying to justify why staying in bed was the best option. But, at the end we walked! During lunch time I went to the yoga class, funny it wasn’t just a yoga class it was a meditation class, chants and all. My body wasn’t ready for it and my mind kept going wandering. I am convincing my colleagues to go once a week. In the evening I did my light weight exercises. I got to 10,000 steps.
Hurrah, hurrah! 21 days of daily walks! I made it. Early on I learnt that a habit can be formed in just 21 days. So when I’ve tried to get used to something, I’ve always used this technique and usually it works. Tomorrow it’s day 22 and i just hope that i can get to day 100 … and loose some weight in the process. My ankle is still hurting, the pain is going all the way my legs, my tights and into my hips and lower back. It hurts badly. I am afraid that the pain will get worse, and I m not going to be able to keep on walking or getting back to running. That’s why I think it is important to start with a light weight program. So grateful that today I managed to go for my walk and also do my arms exercises. Given that the weight is not coming off – I actually put on 200 grms, should I start a diet? I’ve never gone for a diet, as i think that healthy ealting is the best way of loosing wieight, but i don;t see the weight coming off any time soon. A few of my colleagues are in this 5:2 diet, I wonder whether is works and whether is healthy. I don’t know if i can give it a go …
It has been 20 days since we started walking in the mornings. So far we haven’t missed one day and today despite not really talking to each other, we went for a 3km walk. So thankful for that. Also feeling very grateful for the chance to teach. I had around 35 high school students in my tutorial and I really enjoyed the interaction. For my fitness, I decided to start doing a bit of arms/shoulder work, only 9 mins at night, but enough to start building a bit of muscle. I don’t think that walking by itself will help me loose weight. In the past I have lost weight by running alone, but since my accident I can’t really run fast. So, I must find another way of getting a high intensity workout.