ETHICS CLEARANCE GRANTED!! Done and done … finally! I am happy that this milestone has been achieved, but scared that I have to go into the big bad world and start collecting information. This is it, once I start contacting clients, I just can’t go back and don’t finish at least the report. Over the next two weeks I will be pilot testing my survey questions, making lists of people to contact and hopefully making appointments. It does not feel real just yet, it feels like I am dream-walking.
Last night while I was at boy 1 school, I got a phone call that my mum was lost. At first I felt that she maybe doing it on purpose – staying away – given that she was upset from the night before. As the night progressed hubby and boys starting to get worried. I tried calling her a couple of times, and once she finally answered her phone she sounded scared and fragile, she truly was lost. At first could not even tell me where she was, finally she was able to look at the signs around her and hint her location. Once I got home, hubby was cranky because he had been searching for her for hours and felt angry that I was not taking the matter seriously. The thing is that I was worried, but calm. This is something that i know always happens to me when in a crisis, I detached myself of the crisis and just do what it needs to be done. I never get into panic mode. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. Last night it worked because I reached home, got into the car, went to look for her, managed to get a better description of her location, and I found her safe and sound. She was hidden in a place that nobody would be looking for her, she may have felt embarrassed and was trying to hide away. So dangerous. Glad that God looked after her and she didn’t have one of her panic attacks. Happy that she is home. Concerned for her well-being and clear that I cannot do much to help her. She’s still feeling very unwell, but too proud to admit.
On a happy note. The venue for the party is good and got access. Done, done.